In the last year and a half, my life plans have changed more times than I could count on two hands. I guess if anything, this has led me to just trust myself and my abilities and know that no matter where I end up, it'll turn out just fine. So many people around me are just completely terrified of what happens after that dreaded graduation day, and I guess at this point, I'm just ready to accept it for what it is.
Chris and I have a few options on the table right now. It's funny that a lot of people seem to think there's more weight to our relationship now that we're engaged, but I guess to us it doesn't feel terribly different. It's wonderful and I love that we're engaged now, but I guess since we've thought we'd end up together in the end after only months of dating, this is more just making it official for everyone else. I can't wait to marry Chris, though. I don't know if it'll be a small wedding or just us, family and a courthouse, but no matter what we decide on, it'll be one of the best days of my life.
As far as next year is concerned, we're weighing our options. We have some possibilities lined up in Los Angeles, but we're also considering moving back to San Diego or (this must sound random) moving to Austin, Texas. Those are the 3 main possibilities in regards to next year. The biggest frustration is that money has to come into play in so many aspects. The realities of both of us coming from either low-income (myself) or working class (Chris') families has never been so blatantly clear than when we're trying to figure out what we're going to do next year. There wouldn't be as much stress if we didn't know that failing or picking the 'wrong' option meant not having a financial backup plan.
Overall, I'm still utterly thrilled to be graduating this Spring. It's going to be a very busy quarter, but I'm sure I'll do my best to appreciate the time I have left. Right now, though, I'm done with Winter finals, so I'm just ready to spend spring break in San Diego! It'll be nice to have more than a few days to relax and not have to worry about what's coming next.