Thursday, May 28, 2009

Things I Love Thursday

asking everyone at work, school, etc. to laugh without smiling.
(try it!)

jamba juice for breakfast after a drunk night.

seeing jordan, rickie and andrew after much, much too long.

the feeling that summer is really beginning and that it is going to be absolutely amazing.

matt jerking, especially finding out he was lying about not being good at it.

tanning on the roof with some sexayy ladies.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Dearest Reader,

It sure is hard to get really angry at someone, Reader, when you can think of all the reasons you love them.

And you can.
Trust me, you can.

(This is what I keep reminding myself today.)

Saturday, May 23, 2009

would you like to know a secret?

sometimes, i have this fear that i'll never meet a friend who loves every single part of me. i've never had a friend without constantly questioning if they even like me or not. every time i hang out with anyone or spend time with someone, thoughts are always floating through my mind if i'm boring them or if they'd be enjoying their time more if they were someone else. this bad habit went away for a while, but for some unknown reason it has been happening again with a new friend i've made. but not just with the new friend, but with all of the friends i have now.

i know it's a horrible habit, but i can't control it. my hopes are that one day i'll wake up and the thoughts will disappear.

that's my secret for today.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

too many thoughts.

i have a blog on the way about my views on religion and spirituality. i think it will surprise most everyone who's friends with me. my views are particularly complex and confusing, so it may take a few days to get it where i want it to be before i post.

for some reason i just felt like i should say, it will be here. or at least, i need to get it out. it has been bothering me for some time that people assume that my views on both are negative, when they're anything but.

Friday, May 15, 2009

permanent ink.

Who ever thinks
on their way to the tattoo shop of their choice,
"I think I'll get the ever so popular
Chinese symbol of some quality I don't really possess -
peace, joy, love, harmony."
You know, they think,
to sum up my life's mantra.
In hopes that maybe, just maybe
a mystical Chinese spirit
will appreciate the recognition
and ignore how badly
the tattoo artist
fucked up a simple Chinese word.

Who ever walks in only to decide
that a set of wings across their chest
will make them feel complete.
Forgetting that wings
on your boobs
don't create good first impressions
when you're 40 and on a job interview.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Things I Love Thursday

abandoned barns perfect for exploring and picture taking.

moving back into the only place that's ever really felt like home.

moving back all by yourself, even if only for a few weeks or months.

the "people you may know" toolbox actually showing you someone you know and are glad to find on myspace/facebook.

wonderful conversation against the backdrop of boys playing basketball.

finishing a paper just in time...and still writing it pretty dang well, i might add.

being positive and being around positive people.

loveloveloveloveloving everything - even if everything isn't perfect and even if everything SUCKS, just loving it anyway.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

thanks to gina

i am now going to dance to 'the whole world' by outkast in my living room and forget about all the bullshit this last week had in store for me.


Saturday, May 2, 2009

Happiness Is Always A Choice

wonderfully said.

this is a hugehugehuge belief of mine, though i wouldn't have been able to say it as well. i wish everyone lived like that.